Well Christ on a bike, it’s been since December, hasn’t it? Here’s the scoop:

I dropped out of the University of Kentucky, because I had had it up to my eyeballs with their bullshit. I was rather tired of feeling like my money was more important to them than my education (how many times had I been told by my professors that “the grades don’t matter?”), and it made me vomit a little whenever I realized that the education gimmick was really just an excuse to have SPORTS!!1 After being dicked around by multiple agencies for which I needed to volunteer in order to fulfill my the requirements of Social Work classes, and being screwed over the TA in my German Cinema class, I came home one day in tears, crawled in bed and cried for an hour or two, while repeating “I’m not going back. This place just isn’t worth it.” This was sometime back in March, if I do recall correctly.

Soon after, I scheduled an appointment to tour my mom’s alma mater… a nice, tiny, private college in the middle of bumfucked-Egypt. I invite her ride along, as I figured it’d be nice for her to have the chance to “go back home”, as it were. And dudes? It was fantastic. So I immediately applied, sent in my transcripts and scores, and waited to hear back with what kind of scholarship package I’d be getting. I mean, this place isn’t cheap… we’re talking, twice the cost of UK. Even though I knew I qualified for a legacy scholarship, having three generations in my family walk in and out of their doors, I didn’t know if they had exhausted their scholarship awards for the year. So I was sweating bullets until my letter arrived. And I didn’t get the Legacy scholarship (boo!)… I got a better one (YAY!).

The usual routine occurs, where you register for classes, some get canceled, things get fucked up, things get fixed, blah blah etc. Which brings us to today, my last day of freedom before class starts tomorrow.

Other updates? Well, let’s see. I got a little job, which earns me even smaller paychecks. Saw VNV in NKY back in March. Started reading the Sword of Truth series by Terry Goodkind. Flew cross-country to visit some friends a few weeks ago. Some hellacious family drama occurred at roughly the same time as that travel adventure, and is still unfolding on a continuing basis. And… ehm. I think that’s about it, really. Exciting, right? Obviously, we haven’t missed much in my non-updating mood. But maybe I’ll update more now that I’m not so filled with hate and rage about the school situation.

Packed up, checked in, boarding passes printed, and ready to roll. I’m absolutely amazed at the awesome power of Space Bags. I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: Space Bags are the best thing to ever happen to Planet Earth. FO SHEEZY. With all my shit all nice and compressed, I had ample space to get lappy packed for travel, too. So I’ll be able to check in on the online-world a wee bit more often than if I had to steal Kev’s compy.

I’m also clean, groomed, and smelling of oranges. I fucking rock.

Since I’m not gonna be home for x-mess, Mom decided tonight was Christmas Eve. I opened my pressies, and had them open theirs. Being skint as I am this year, I couldn’t afford much better than your run-of-the-mill gift-set, but they were chuffed: a box of Walkers Shortbread cookies, Earl Grey and English Breakfast tea, and a pair of mugs. Aye… some things I’ve carried back from over The Pond will never fade… we loves us some fukkin’ Walkers.

It’s just too bad I couldn’t get anyone else to like Marmite. SIGH. Ahhh I remember last Christmas, I got a leetle pot of Marmite, and had my brother try it… and he strained his neck, he was gagging so hard. Hahahah.

[pottymouth]
OH HELL I COULD TOTALLY BRING MARMITE. YES. I AM PACKING SOME MARMITE RIGHT FUCKING NOW. I WILL TORTURE THE FUCK OUT OF KEV WITH SOME MOTHERFUCKING MARMITE, YEAH!!
[/pottymouth]

As for my motherlode, I have a nice warm set of flannel sheets (RAWK!), a half dozen little ceramic jars for my herbs and botanicals, and a pair of latte mugs I fell in lurve with, each emblazoned with “Naughty” and “Nice” on either side. All I have to do is swich hands, and BAM! People will know what I’m all about that day. HA! Ah love eet!

I can’t lie… I’m gonna miss being with the fam this Christmas. Thanksgiving wasn’t a big deal, because we really don’t do Thanksgiving much. Christmas, though… yeah, that’s different. I love the family, the baking, setting up the Christmas Night party spread, cranking tunes. I love the Wensleydale, the Appleton, my spinach cheese balls and whatever heavily herbed cheeses look good that year. But who knows when the next time will be when Kev and I can spend Christmas with his crew? I am kind of stealing him away from everything down there… so it’s only right that I pop down this time around. We’ll have a few years-worth of of cheese-fest, at least.

Hmm.

Welp. I guess there’s only one thing left to say:

Kev: “I’m so gay. There’s something about you that makes you a dude.” [slight pause] “What a horrible thing to say!”
Me: “No, no… well if it helps, everyone online thinks I’m a dude until I’m like, ‘No, no, I have tits, seriously.’”
Kev: “…well bring ‘em here!”
Me: [chuckles]

Wait, no, that wasn’t it. I mean:

Happy Holidays, everyone

Alternatively titled: X-Mess Wrapping.

Final grades are all in.  Two As and two Bs.  Not what I hoped for, but about what I expected.  Actually, if we can be honest here, I expected to do much worse than a B in German, considering just how much I slacked off after midterm.  Actually, I slacked off pretty freakin’ badly in all my classes after midterm.  Half of my SW lectures were slept-through or missed altogether, and I generally skipped Micro when I missed SW.  Didn’t finish required reading in Ecology.  So I should be very satisfied with what I got, and extremely frustrated at how much I didn’t do in order to get those marks.

I could be a better person if I just tried at it.

So now all I have to worry about are the holidays.  I’m still trying to figure out what all I need to pack.  It’s sort of strange that the less I have to pack, the more confused and flustered I get with it… constantly feeling as if I’m forgetting something.

Clothes? Check.  Chargers? Check.  Tits?  Double-check.

I just hope some of the drama simmers down for the holidays.  The forum for which I serve as an admin has had two punches over the last few, one very recently in the way of an article filled with copious amounts of misinformation and flat-out ignorance that directly quoted from us out of context, so I’ve been lurking pretty heavily and trying to put my best-face-forward on that front.  It’s all fun and cupcakes til you realize there are people out there who derive some perverse sense of joy from belittling a peaceful spiritual community.

I’d wager these are folk who try and pretend they didn’t see the Salvation Army bell-ringers when they walk out of a store.  Or worse, pretend they can’t afford to spare a dollar when they’re carrying out $500 in merch for their ungrateful brat-children.

And finally, how wrong is it that 800 miles of latitude separates two temperature ranges by 50F?  Words cannot describe the frustration.

After last week’s 7-day stay with Kevbot for Thanksgiving, I pretty much stomped my feet and spat and screamed about how 10 days over Christmas break was SO not enough.  So I checked on extending my stay.  Changing my itinerary would’ve cost an arm and a leg, so I decided to just not show up for the original return flight and book a separate one for about 70% less.  Which, in a round-about way, was actually already paid for, since Kev shoved some bills in my hand and told me to go crazy on Black Friday.  I didn’t do that, and was trying to figure out a clever way of giving it back to him… I guess considering it as a purchase for more time is a good enough way.  At least, it’s a way that we’ll both get a kick out of.  Plus I get to giggle over going, “oh, oopsie-doodle, I missed my flight” [yawn/snog/buttgrab].  It’s all pretty WIN.

So… fuck yes.  Just have to make it through finals-hell before I get to have two and a half weeks of IN YO FACE.  Mmph.  Yessss. Then after that… to just survive the next few months til living arrangements get arranged.  That’s gonna be a bite in the side.  *flail*

Blue Grass Airport Welcomes Allegiant Air to Lexington

Nonstop service from Lexington to Tampa at a mere $69 (plus taxes and fees) each way.  Can we say GODSEND?  I wish I had smelled this happening earlier… I wouldn’t have panicked over rising prices over Christmas Vacay.  But no, this had to get smelled just days AFTER I reserved my seats with United.  Son of bitchy!  But hey, now I know where to look for Spring Break.

What else can be said?  Not much.  Not very much going on beyond waking-up, driving, going to class, driving back home, getting my nightly dose of haerts, sleeping (not enough), and waking-up some more.  I suppose I could mention that the OUTSource is actually a rather cool place to chill between classes.  Always weary of GLBT(QQA) associations as they always seem to be uber-faggy, but I slid down to their office the other day in search of volunteer work, and wound up staying for two hours just jabbering.  If you’re bored on campus, I’d definitely recommend checking ‘em out.

Sadly, I’m not hearing about any real volunteer work from them, and I have to get four hours minimum for SW, so eh.  I’m either going to hit up VIP or KET.  KET would be the shit.

Another weekend, another failure to keep track of things I should be keeping track of. Ugh. I did chew a rather hefty dent in The Omnivore’s Dilemma… about 150 more pages to plow through before the first exam. Not that daunting of a task though, since it is actually a very interesting book. Nothing in there that shocks me, and most of it I already knew, but it’s still a rather delicious read.

Tomorrow, I need to try and catch up on Micro, and see if I can’t figure out the rest of the German work we were left to do.  It’s gotten to a point, it seems, where we’re being expected to complete assignments before we’ve even covered the things we need to know for said assignments… sort of like your Friday quizzes to test you on what you learned during the week being moved to Monday before you’ve learned it (I desperately need to buy that movie, by the by).  I’ll give it my best, but I really expect a bit more instruction for this ~$1k-per-class price tag.  If I wanted a teach-yourself deal, I would’ve stayed with my $10 set of cds.

Ah yes, I almost forgot.  One major accomplishment of the weekend which fills me with glee… I managed to nail a reasonably priced flight down to Tampa for Christmas and New Year’s, on top of my previously scheduled Thanksgiving trip.  Feels strange having two flights tucked away at once in my wallet.  Now I’ve just got to figure out when and how to break it to the folks that I’m not going to be around…

New Year’s.  That… yeah, how am I going to feel about that day?  So much to reflect on, there.  So many changes over the past nine months already… so much more happiness and comfort.  More movement and progress.  More love.  More laughter.  It’s been one hell of a remarkable year.  It blows my mind every single day.  Standing on THE day when everything changed… seeing where I’ve been and where I am today… well.  Wow?  It should be interesting.  And nothing less than fantastic, considering I am one of those goofballs that just loves, loves the idea of facenibbling at the ball drop.  Teehee.

Handfasting fell apart because I should really learn to not trust friends so recklessly… especially when they’ll make it feel like your fault for trying to dance around their schedule for an event that has nothing to do with them at all. In a fit of disappointed rage, my phone got all nice and destroyed upside a wall. So now I’m using an old L7 that only halfway works, desperately trying to find a cheap phone/mp3 player that uses an M2 chip. This isn’t looking promising. I also ran a stoplight and a stop sign, for being so pleasantly distracted. And I felt horrible about this, until I checked my email and found that Kev missed his connection from Charlotte to Tampa for about the same reasons. Now I feel horrible about that instead
Well, not really horrible. I just know how much I always hated being stuck between places under such circumstances, giving you the “why did I even attempt leaving” brand of emo and blah.

All these major snafus aside… well, you can imagine, right? I had a wonderful time doing mostly nothing… just being close, and laughing, and holding, and staring, smiling, loving, driving. We did manage to hold to a few of our plans, one being OMFG DAET NITE AT TEH MOVIEZ, watching the new X-Files movie. It was a good movie, but it was more like “A Plot That Just Happens To Have Mulder and Scully In It”. There was one part that absolutely terrified me, but it had nothing to do with the oogah-boogah plot. Hah.

I just… god. This isn’t fun. I do not like the “being ripped from your side” deal that comes with all this. I want him back… here… now. Or me there. Anywhere. Him need want augh. And if this schedule is reading right… it might be another two months before I get time off. And that, my friends, fucking blows. Can’t say I’m happy about that at all…

But, at least, I should be able to swing the cost without problems. Student loans rawk. And with classes kicking in so soon, I don’t have much time to dwell and be emo. Hopefully staying busy with classes will make the time go by faster than the slow-drag between my last visit and his. Crazy how the shortest wait felt like the longest… urgh.

Anyhow, I am hungry. And tired. And sore. I think I ought to choke some food down and lie down. SIGH.